Changing gears

As projects end and new ones start, I find the process of changing gears to be exciting, challenging, depressing, and enlightening (yes all at the same time). The winding down starts and my body thinks that it is a good thing yet my mind says other wise. Almost as if an alarm goes of warning my internals that things are going to change, about a week before a major change, I get major anxiety. This usually is a restlessness brought on by the unknown. I do find that this changing allows for me to contemplate what I have been doing and what I enjoyed about it and what I didn't enjoy or would like to learn more about. This also allows me to think and learn about the new venture. I don't always know what I am going to do, but I am not one to go into things unprepared if I can help it.
Changing gears can be tricky in some situations and disastrous in others. It can also be smooth and very rewarding. Sometimes there is a slight or even major downshift that slows momentum and other times there is an increase in revolutions and speed as things pick-up and start to fly by with a nice hum of the engine.
The most challenging thing for me is when I am conflicted in wanting to do something different and wanting to do what I am doing because it is working great for me. This is not because I am scared or nervous about the new venture, it is more that I won't put the effort and dedication into both projects that is needed. Now if you know me you might be chuckleing about this, but I am trying to have a balance in my life that includes sleep and I have to try and dedicate myself and allow myself to pull back on things to create that balance. So changing gears I am and so far, I am not spinning out of control. Give it a few weeks.